Fear will make you think you have nothing to say.
It will create a buzz that makes it impossible to meditate…
or it will create a fog that makes it so you can do nothing but meditate.
Fear seduces us into losing our temper.
and fear belittles us into accepting unfairness.
We’ve all seen the posters…cats hanging by their tails with those big eyes luring us into believing the slogan..”The truth will set you free.” The part that is missing is that getting to it can be really painful. I have never seen a poster on that one, but perhaps if there were one it would look like this….
October must be “break-up month”! Seems every woman I know is eating Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups by the handfuls and when they stop chewing can only say one thing…”I should have known”. They mean, “I should have known the truth.” And then the self-flagellation begins, reminiscent of the ritual of Opus Dei in The Da Vinci Code.
We know the “truth” at two points in any relationship that ends. When we first meet, and after we grieve the loss and finally get to acceptance. Why, if we knew it when we met him/her do we not follow the logical actions? Because love is never logical, because we want love in our lives, and most of all because being alone on weekends, during holidays and in that big old bed just feels so much worse than saying “No” to what might be if we just move forward and see what happens. Yep, love is not a straight line, there is no right answer, and most of us ignore the truth for some period of time.
If this sounds familiar, give yourself a hug and rid yourself of the bony finger pointing toward your sweet self. You took a chance! You were willing to be open to love! And now, you can heal in time and when you’re back out there and again decide to see what happens and sadly find that your hunch was true, you’ll get out earlier. Just maybe though, you’ll discover that your hunch was your fear talking and that you’ll be sharing holidays together.
Be kind to yourself. Be willing to try again. The truth never killed anyone. The journey you took was worth it. For today, have another Peanut Butter Cup.